TODAY WAS THE DAY THAT I RAN INTO βHERββ¦
For those of you following my health journey, you know that I have been working on bringing exercise back into my life. Even though I am still limited, I do what I can do.
I recently joined the gym (it’s been YEARS) and today, I decided I was going to walk the treadmill and do some weight training.
When I got there this morning, the weight lifting area was pretty empty – I thought to myself, thank God!
After 45 minutes WALKING on the treadmill, I headed to the weight area.
I immediately felt PANIC…….
There were people in there (IMAGINE THAT)!
They were young, fit, attractive….
Oh crap! What do I do? A voice inside said, just go home and lift weights at home. Another voice said, girl, you got in the car and drove here for this, so do it!
What you may not know about me is that going to the gym in my 20’s was the norm…..I used to be certified in fitness/personal training and I was not afraid to work out.
Today, “SHE” showed up with me.
You know her.
That voice.
She said to me, Erica:
- What if you make a fool of yourself – you don’t even know how to use most of these machines?
- What if I’m not doing the exercise properly and other people can tell I’m a rookie?
- What if I hurt myself?
- You don’t look like her – she’s fit and knows what she’s doing!
- You’re never going to be fit, you can barely exercise!
ARE YOU SERIOUS?
I thought I didn’t care what people thought of me (in that area anyway). I thought I took care of “HER” a long time ago.
Well, that’s an illusion!
Anytime we conquer our fear on one thing, SHE rises up to keep us from pursuing our goals!
Not this time girlfriend….
I knew just what to do to shut her up, get in there, and lift them weights in front of other people I don’t give a HOOT about what they think of me.
And…..I remembered that confidence is NOT an external thing….it’s an internal one!
So, ladies…..ROCK ON WITH YOUR BAD SELF TODAY!
